I'll start out as there are many such situations I have to tell.
Curious Female - Internet Social Media Site
The reality...the woman:
I'm not going to give you her user name or the site as I've continued to have an ongoing dialogue with her. She is a woman on a site wherein CFNM and hosting parties are a topic. Her profile is complete with a number of photos of her. She's in her upper thirties and somewhat attractive, a brunette with a shapely figure, large natural breasts but not overweight. She posts that she has a very, very voyeuristic passion she loves not only to look at naked men's penises, but has a deep erotic fascination in watching them masturbate...so much so that she rates it as her #1 erotic desire. Yet despite her voyeurism, she rates her own exhibitionistic desires as very, very low. One of her fantasies is to be sitting with a guy watching television when he suddenly pulls his pants down and starts to jack off in front of her - she said she would quietly watch with enjoyment, he'd finish, yet they'd never talk about it and continue their friendship as though nothing happened. She's also part of a sub-forum for "women that like to watch men jack off".
She is also starting to yearn towards exploring female domination, even though she says she adores men. For her, it was a conflict as she had trouble reconciling how she could be so much into men yet wanting to control them and enjoy a bit of sadistic pleasures with men. She has attended a "munch" about CFnm parties in the area, and she's very interested in them. Part of her desire would be the opportunity to spank the naked men that attended such a party (she *really* wants to explore spanking).
She's in a complicated marriage. At one time he discovered her profile forcing her to change it and didn't post for a couple of years. But somehow things have changed and although still married, she can now post her desires in these areas unconcerned about her husband seeing them. But what I've concluded is that when similar situations have happened with couples, there is a compromise wherein both are allowed to enjoy what they do (such as her exploring these desires) provided it does not evolve into sex or a physical relationship with someone else. These means that she can enjoy CFNM and watching naked men masturbate...even in person...but, it must stay completely platonic and that although she can be friends with such men, she cannot have sex with them, and I'm guessing, it means that such men cannot see her nude. These are speculations, but based upon what I've seen with other couples, and, her writings.
I "friended" her several years ago and had some *very* erotic exchanges, and we are still friends. However, she has taken a bit of a respite recently.
My fantasy...
Realizing she's attended munches and has interests in attending CFnm parties, I'd love to connect with her in person and discuss in greater detail this site, and, how we could help her get a party going in her area. During the discussion, I would ask her about the type of CFNM that she would most want to enjoy while encouraging her to visit our website's section on suggested games and activities at CFNM parties (in reality, I already sent her the link). As we get to know each other in person, I would reassure her that I had no intention of violating her pact with her husband, that anything we did would stay within her rules, and it would always be just a platonic friendship - although I'd hope it would be a very good friendship. I'd also reassure her that I respect her desire to always stay clothed and we could both assume that she would never be nude or even topless in front of me. That would be our own pact to our platonic friendship.
As part of our platonic friendship, we could mutually explore her interests in CFNM. I'd invite her to my place to start to watch that cornucopia of CFNM videos and photos I've collected over the years. Early in watching the videos together, we'd talk about the psychology of CFNM, and I imagine we'd talk about how it was inconsistent to be enjoying CFNM videos without the two of us "practicing what we preached" while we watched, because, after all, wouldn't we be hypocrites if I wasn't naked while she was clothed as we watched them??? From what I know of her, we might not even reach that conversation as she'd probably bring it up right as the videos began having me strip naked at the very beginning. The CFNM videos could include just about everything and anything found on in the Village, including B2B and Folsom St. photos; CFNM clothing-optional beaches; CFNM vids featuring femdom inclusive of CBT, ballbusting and her favorite, spanking; and about anything else. The stated goal would be to find her "sweet spot" of CFNM enjoyment while my own private world of CFNM erotic would be opened completely to her to see and know about me.
As we continued to watch, I apologize for my dick becoming erect, which she of course would say "No! Don't apologize, I love it!" (again, this may not be fantasy as I'm guessing it would be a reality). I'd then start showing her CFNM videos of naked men jacking off in front of clothed females, which we know is her favorite topic. Of course, I wouldn't "Harvey Weinstein" her, that is, just start to jack off even though I know she says she loves it, I'd still want to get her to indicated she wanted to watch me and approved of it. Once I got that, it would be a nirvana. I'd be doing what all of us have done - watching CFNM videos in the nude wanking away, but now it would be doing that same thing except with an attractive clothed female with me enjoying the exact same thing. She would be sharing in the private experience I've had for years - jacking off alone - and enjoying everything erotic about it I did. She also loves to hear the deep fantasies of others, so I'd not only be naked physically, but also emotionally and psychologically as well as I discussed all of my fantasies about the videos we were watching. And she would know instantly what I found the most erotic as the frenetic pace of my hand sliding up and down my erect shaft would increase - she'll look at my hard erect penis as I furiously stroked it and giggle "wow, you must really like THIS fantasy video...haha!".
Some of the videos might include the "Beat the Cock" game played on Kay's Planet vids wherein a naked man stands next to a clothed sitting female contestant, and as he jacks off she tries to complete the trivia questions Kay asks her before he ejaculates in order to win $300. Interestingly, the men have differing techniques when jacking off, and she could ask me about them and have me demonstrate to her each one for her as we discussed them. If her pact with her husband allowed it, could fondle or squeeze my bouncing balls, hold my pulsating erect dick, or, play with the precum on the tip of my penis as other women have enjoyed doing at CFNM parties I have actually attended. We would explore together all the mystique and details surrounding male masturbation as she and I explored my jacking off together. The conclusion would be our both watching the head of my dick as it squirt its sperm, which would be where ever she told me she wanted me to shoot it - all over myself, in a wine glass, or, in the palm of her hand, but all subject to her instruction. After we finished watching me cum, we'd conclude the CFNM video viewings assuming she had satiated her desire. Afterward, we'd both have a better idea as to what we wanted to experience at the CFNM party we're planning together. We'd set a date for our next get-together along with assigning tasks (venue, props, invites), then, as she left I'd shake her hand, or more probably, a nice hug with *possibly* a quick kiss on the cheek so as not to make it anything romantic. I'd then tell her how much I valued our platonic friendship and wished I had more friends like her. We'd have as many such planning meetings as she felt was needed, and at each she could explore my naked flesh and inner-most erotic fantasies to whatever extend and means she desires - all subject to her wants and needs. Finally, we'd end up hosting the CFNM parties to where I could honor her and reward her friendship with an exciting, great event that she and her female friends would never get.
And that's the fantasy part....who knows, maybe one day?
_________________ If the highest aim of a captain were to preserve his ship, he would keep it in port forever. ~ Thomas Aquinas
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