For the newbies posting, as I created the acronym "CFNM", I thought I'd post one of my first CFNM experiences, and certainly the most profound insofar as shaping my adolescence as a being formative to understanding issues such as power control and humiliation that is often part of CFNM, although there was no name for it at that time.
Preface: Before i tell this story, a disclaimer relating a few things. First, what happened was not anything I planned, nor was I an instigator, but just a witness, although I willingly participated in the conversation without interceding. Second, this was during an era when such things were not viewed from a politically correct perspective. Ergo, calling someone "mentally retarded" was acceptable if accurate, or funny if not.
Story: This happened many years ago in the early 1970s in Houston, Texas - large city in the southern U.S. with all the charm of the south as well as a commensurate level of lack of empathy for those of lesser stature or means. Next door to my suburban home lived a boy and girl, both adopted. Jason and I were the same age, which at the time was about 12 or 13, Allison was 11 or 12. Even at that early age, it was clear to me Jason was gay given he constantly tried to get neighborhood boys to drop their pants for him. It also educated me about guys that are gay in that they often know in their early formative years. Allison was a quiet girl, long auburn hair and no indications of being gay, but, she had a mischievous streak in her like her older brother.
Across the street lived a boy, Alfred. Alfred was a couple of years older and had physically changed through puberty. He was a tall slender fellow and was physically normal in every way; however, he was mentally retarded. His IQ was lower and was socially awkward, particularly around Allison as Jason had told me he had a crush on Allison. During the day, Alfred's parents worked, and they had a maid that also looked out after him and his smaller sister.
One summer day Jason told me he wanted to play a trick on Alfred. Not sure what it was, but the four of us - Jason, Allison, Alfred and me - ended up behind their large detached garage, which had an outdoor space surrounded by a cedar fence such that no one could observe us. We had played back there for years, so our being back there was not unusual.
While we were there, in front of Alfred, Jason told Allison that Alfred had a crush on her. Allison said "Really?", and Alfred blushed and didn't say anything. I don't remember specifically what Jason told Alfred, but it was to the effect that if he liked Allison and wanted her to like him back, he had to prove he liked her. When Alfred asked what he was talking about, Jason said that if a boy likes a girl, the way she knows he likes her is that he has to get naked and show her his penis. Of course, most boys that age would have challenged Jason, but remember, Alfred was retarded and didn't know any better.
Allison of course could have said it wasn't true, but she was just as much into the trick as Jason. I asked Allison is she had ever seen a naked boy, and she replied only Jason when he was much younger. I then asked if she'd like to see Alfred get naked, and she said "Yes!" So it was a win-win for the brother and sister - Jason was gay and Allison was curious about male anatomy, and at that age, it would have been an early eye-opener for any girl.
Alfred kept looking at Allison, and his fondness for her made her want to appease her eagerness to see him naked, no doubt believing Jason that this would make her like him. So he slowly unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off, sat on a pile of boards and took his tennis shoes and socks off, stood up and removed his shorts than standing there facing Allison, he pulled his underwear down and removed them. As he stood naked in front of Jason and Allison, it was hard to tell which one was more enthralled with Alfred's exposed penis and balls. Alfred had gone through puberty and had a nice size penis as well as large balls.
Both Jason and Allison were giggling as they stared at Alfred's genitals. Jason told Alfred to turn around so that Allison could see his naked butt, and he did. Jason then told Alfred to turn back around and told his little sister to touch Alfred's penis, and as he did, he - not Allison, reached over and touched it. She followed suit and soon both were fondling Alfred's penis and balls as he stood there blushing and not sure what to say.
Inevitably, Alfred's penis began to stiffen and quickly was a full, hard erection. Jason explained the transformation to Allison and had her grab Alfred's balls as he talked about all the sperm she should make him produce. Allison was letting her brother take the lead, but, was a happy follower in what he was having Alfred do. I sat there quietly torn between feeling bad for the trick they were playing Alfred, but also a huge feeling of sexual excitement watching Allison laugh as she played with Alfred's hard dick. I'd never seen any sexual contact between a boy and girl (way before the Internet), and I found it erotic. So I didn't intercede but just watched.
Alfred was both very sexually aroused, but was beet red blushing from the embarrassment of his situation. Finally, Jason told Alfred that if he wanted Allison to really like him, he had to now jack off for her. Alfred didn't understand the request, so Jason grabbed his hand and showed him how to masturbate himself; however, Alfred new quickly what was expected and started to do it evidencing it wasn't his first time. Jason asked him if he'd ever done it, and he said he had, and that his mother had told him about it (I presume he was concerned when he did it and the discharge, which she educated him about).
Clearly thinking he was winning Allison's heart by doing, the three of us closely watched Alfred jerk his hard dick off for her amusement. Masturbation was still somewhat of a new concept to me, and I'm sure it was for Allison as well. So it was a fun thing for all of us to participate in Alfred's learning how to do it. I remember his dick dribbling precum, which Jason made sure we all took notice. Both Jason and Allison had eager hands and were grabbing Alfred's balls as he jacked off.
Finally, his dick erupted into a spray of sperm on Allison's knees and she squealed with laughter running her finger over Alfred's penis hole collecting the last drops. Jason's eyes were wide, and he had a huge bulge in his pants clearly highly aroused. But I too was aroused and felt my cock had also swollen, but for a different reason. It was the exchange between Allison and Alfred during this very tender, intimate moment as he was embarrassed and feeling naked and vulnerable. It was at that moment that I felt my first erotic liking to what CFNM was all about, although it would take me another two decades to coin a name for it on the Internet.
Rather than have Alfred get dressed, Jason told him we were going to play behind the garage and that Alfred should stay completely naked the whole time. But this lasted only about 10 minutes when we heard the back door open and the maid call out for Alfred to come eat his lunch. Alfred dressed, then said he had to go. I remember him asking Allison "Do you like me now?", and she said "You're just a friend, and today we played a trick on you -hahaha". I could see Alfred's feelings were hurt and a look of humiliation on his blushed face, but he half-heartedly laughed with her, "You, you played a good joke on me...haha!" Jason told Alfred his mom might get mad at him for what he'd just done, and Alfred said "No! We can't tell her!" Apparently no one ever told her either.
Interestingly, the dynamic among us neighborhood kids didn't seem to change much after that. Alfred would swoon over Allison when we played, and she'd laugh about it, even joking with him about the funny "trick" that was played on him followed by all of us, including Alfred, laughing about it.
In retrospect, no, it wasn't right, even though I didn't plan it, instigate it nor instruct Alfred to do anything whatsoever. And I'm confident had I not been there, it would have still happened in my absence, maybe even more humiliating for Alfred. Further, had it not been for Jason's over-zealous pursuit of it, and, had Allison asked me, I was so aroused that I would have eagerly obeyed her instructions and stood there naked side-by-side with Alfred wanting him to share the stage with me as I let her enjoy me doing the same thing, including whatever humiliation it gave me. But I know that's not an excuse for me staying there to watch, nor can I lie about how much I enjoyed being there to witness it all - it was a highly erotic moment that shaped my psyche about CFNM.
_________________ If the highest aim of a captain were to preserve his ship, he would keep it in port forever. ~ Thomas Aquinas
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